
You Killed Me First by John Marrs
Genre: Psychological thriller
Read: 28th June 2025
Published: 4th March 2025
★★★★★ 5 stars
DESCRIPTION:
Three women. Three smouldering secrets. Who will make it out alive?
It’s 5 November, and a woman awakens to a nightmare. Bound and gagged, she lies trapped in the heart of a towering bonfire. As the smoke thickens, panic sets in – she’s moments away from being engulfed in flames. How did it come to this?
Rewind eleven months: Margot, a faded TV star, and her long-suffering friend Anna watch as glamorous Liv and her flawless family move into their street. The three women soon fabricate the perfect pretence of friendship, but each harbours her own deadly secret – and newcomer Liv senses something is terribly wrong beneath the polished exteriors.
As cracks widen in the veneer of perfection and lies escalate out of control, tension ignites. Bonfire Night is approaching and someone is set to burn…But who will it be?
MY THOUGHTS:
Three women...three smouldering secrets...who will make it out alive?
Can John Marrs even write a bad thriller? This is (I think) my fifth read by him which I have devoured fervently without a sign of being "just an OK read". I just wish he published more so I would have more to enjoy! I've said before I love his dark style of compelling tales that leave you breathless. While the previous ones I've read have bordered on creepy, this one (whilst still having some creepy connotations) brings in dark humour (which I love) that not only peppers but jumps out of the pages in the form of out and out cattiness. Meeeeoooow!!
It's Bonfire night and Marrs delivers us a prologue that will blow your mind! A woman is bound and gagged and is trapped in a towering bonfire. How did she get here? And what has she done? As she screams why, she is answered with the chilling words - "you killed me first"...
Rewind eleven months...
Margot is curtain twitching when she sees the removalist van out front. A sure sign that her new neighbours are at last moving in, after several months of renovations. But when she spies Anna heading across the road armed with a container of cupcakes, Margot springs into action and douses herself in the most becoming outfit, her signature scent (Chanel Mademoiselle) and a bottle of red and greets Anna in the guise of welcoming their new neighbour.
When Liz surprises them from behind, dressed in her designer labels having just stepped out of her new Land Rover Defender, she is eager to befriend the two women. But the quips she delivers are equally barbed - to Margot, at any rate, who seems to draw attention to herself at every opportunity.
The three women strike up a friendship of sorts but how well do they really know each other?
Margot is a former teen pop star turned reality star turned stay at home stepmum (from hell). Not a role she chose for herself and she's somewhat bitter about the cards she's been dealt, but oh well and all that. She married Nicu eleven years ago, taking on his children as her own - a task she didn't initially sign up for when she first slept with the almost married Nicu. After the public backlash, she and Nicu moved to the quiet cul-de-sac to start afresh. But someone has been sending her threatening messages. A stalker maybe? And things keep disappearing from her house? What secret from her past has lead to this?
Anna is a shy, quiet and soft spoken young woman who makes jewellery as a sideline which she sells online. Her husband Drew is a borderline drunk with a chip on his shoulder who seems to spend most of his time brooding, drinking or slamming doors. She and Margot have been friends since she moved to the quiet street, despite the fact Margot seems to publicly demean her at every opportunity and taking pleasure from it. But appearances can often be deceptive, can they not?
Liv is the confident newcomer to the street. An ex-banker, married to Brandon with twins Ingrid and Rupert, she left the high life of London behind to bring up her children in the suburbs with plans of building and opening her own wellness clinic. Brandon is a personal trainer and will be put to good use in her new clinic, where she will teach yoga and pilates. Liv seems to have it all in spades which leaves Margot practically drooling upon entrance to her newly renovated home. And appearances are everything to Margot! But what is Liv hiding behind her carefully curated and very polished veneer that would shake up all those appearances?
Each of these women have a whole load of secrets they are hiding from everyone as well as each other. But can they uncover each other's secrets and unleash a whole load of mayhem in the process without killing each other?
So what happens next? Just your average everyday "Desperate Housewives" surburban chaos in the quiet cul-de-sac which could easily be mistaken for Wisteria Lane. Margot is a Gaby/Lynette; Anna is a Susan; whilst Liv is a Bree/Gaby. The gossip, cheating, the backstabbing, the trolling, the stalking, the self-harm, the murder, the lies, the secrets, the deception...these women have it all! Never mind what's buried on Wisteria Lane, Marrs has some dark and twisted secrets buried in these womens' lives!
Margot has to be one of the most despicable characters but oh my, I found myself rooting for her! And her very witty (even if inappropriate) barbs often had me laughing. I can well see how much fun Marrs must have had unleashing his inner bitch with Margot. But Liv was not blind to Margot's bitchiness and was equally catty with her, if not for payback for her passive aggressive treatment of Anna. Yes, she gave as good as she got and was an equal match for the bitchy Margot. And Anna? Was she really as quiet and drab as she appeared? Could she really not see Margot's taunts for what they really were? Or did she want to be accepted so much she put up with them?
Whatever the case, these women were so super catty - even alongside the inclusion of Cat Face 1.0 and 2.0...LOL Their bitchiness made my head spin. I really thought I was rewatching "Desperate Housewives" revamped. The entire first half of the book was pretty much reruns of the noughties show that I was wondering where Marrs was headed with this one. Nothing at all thriller-like was jumping out at me...just a bunch of women throwing bitchy barbs like fuel onto flames.
And then came Part Two...and it all began to fall into place. But even as the countdown continued to Bonfire night, you think you know what is going on but trust me, you haven't a clue. Marrs is a master at delivering shocking twists that will make your head spin! Even if you're expecting it! Seriously, this book was so different from his other creepy reads that I was all set to make this my first of his books to give less than a 5 star rating because where was the thrills? The shocks? The twists? For half the book we have the gossips of Wisteria Lane backstabbing each other behind closed doors - not a 5 star read. But then came the second half. And thensome.
Trust me, you will be shocked. You will be thrilled. You will be so pumped you will be left wanting more! So grab a copy and buckle up. You are in for one hell of a ride!
I would like to thank #JohnMarrs, #Netgalley and #AmazonPublishing for an ARC of #YouKilledMeFirst in exchange for an honest review.
MEET THE AUTHOR:
John Marrs is a former journalist from Northamptonshire, England, who spent 25 years interviewing celebrities from the world of television, film and music for national newspapers and magazines. He wrote for publications including The Guardian’s Guide and Guardian Online; OK! Magazine; Total Film; Empire; Q; GT; The Independent; Star; Reveal; Company; Daily Star and News of the World’s Sunday Magazine.
Now a psychological thriller writer, his debut book 'The Wronged Sons' (also titled 'When You Disappeared') released in 2014 is a tense psychological thriller with over 240 x 5 star reviews on Amazon. His second book 'Welcome To Wherever You Are' is a suspense thriller and an Amazon #1 best seller, 'The One' (previously 'A Thousand Small Explosions') was relaunched in January 2017, 'The Good Samaritan' published in 2018 with his latest 'What Lies Between Us' published in May 2020.
He recently gave up his job to write novels full time. His first car at the age of seventeen was a three-door, Ford Escort with a Batman sticker in the rear windscreen. He thought the sticker was cool at the time.
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