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Tuesday 31 March 2020

REVIEW: Die for Me by Jesper Stein (ARC)


Die for Me (Axel Steen #2) by Jesper Stein
Genre: Crime fiction, police procedural, Scandi-noir
Read: 30th March 2020
Purchase: Amazon
(publication date: 23rd January 2020)

★ 1 star

Set in Copenhagen, DIE FOR ME is the second in the Axel Steen series and features an annoyingly flawed main character. I don't know how many books I have read where the main detective drinks himself into oblivion, although this one gets stoned has sex and gets stoned again. But the theme does get a little tiring after a while.

The premise for DIE FOR ME indeed sounded promising but I don't know if something is lost in the translation or I was just frustrated with the politics and the depressing narrative by the main character, Axel Steen, because it just grated on me. The most exciting thing was the Prologue. Then came the police politics, the morose monloguing by Axel, his getting stoned on his days off, the ex-wife now shacked up with his boss...I just lost patience with it.

It begins with a missing young girl's body found in the lake in Orsted Park. It is clearly a homicide but it's one that remains unsolved leaving DCI Axel Steen both unsettled and haunted for years to come. But now a DNA match discovered on a sexual assault victim matches one found on an item belonging to the cold case victim. Axel begins investigating the new rape case and discovers there is a predator preying on young women in Copenhagen.

Had that remained the focus of the story, I may have enjoyed it far more, but as it was the back stabbing of police politics, the ex-wife now hooked up with Axel's boss, the annoying bits that just took away from the actual story...just ruined it for me. I didn't like his ex-wife Cecilie nor her lover, Deputy Commissioner Jens Jessen. I didn't want police politics, I didn't want morose monologuing as to where his life has gone wrong, I didn't want stoned sex with various women, I didn't want back stabbing or nastiness. I wanted a good solid crime thriller that gave us a look at both sides of the coin. I didn't get it. And if it was there, I must have missed it.

A police procedural that is dark and gritty, DIE FOR ME may not be for everyone due to its subject matter. For some, the topic of violent sexual assault and rape may be a little difficult to read.

I couldn't warm to Axel. But then I couldn't warm to any of the characters. He could be a competent detective but he just goes about things in an arse about way and added to that is his drug habit, not to mention his depressing monologue which were at times just a little too much.

I used to really enjoy Scandi crime, but in the last couple of years I have found them to be far too convoluted with totally flawed and unlikable characters. Maybe I have had my fill of flawed characters that it just grates on me every time I come across one now. The world is depressing enough these days, I don't need a depressing main character to make my reads far from enjoyable.

While I didn't enjoy DIE FOR ME, many have done so. So maybe it's just me. It is a chilling read in parts but overall, not for me. However, don't take my word for it as others have thoroughly enjoyed it. You never know, you just may too

I would like to thank #JesperStein, #NetGalley and #MirrorBooks for an ARC of #DieForMe in exchange for an honest review.

Sunday 29 March 2020

REVIEW: Happy Ever After by C.C. MacDonald (ARC)


Happy Ever After by C.C. MacDonald
Genre: Domestic thriller
Read: 29th March 2020
Purchase: Amazon
(publication date: 23rd January 2020)

★ 1 star

An interesting premise that sadly failed in delivery. I really struggled with this book and whilst the title may be HAPPY EVER AFTER, it left me feeling anything but.

Naomi and Charlie are struggling to conceive their second child. Their sex life is timed to temperatures and ovulation charts whilst in the midst of their perfect life with their beautiful daughter and their lovely home, they begin to drift apart.

One day when taking daughter Prue to nursery, Naomi meets one of the other parents, who she refers to as "the lumberjack", and instantly there is a connection. She soon learns his name is Sean and they got for coffee together and Sean invites her to bring Prue to swimming lessons. But after the swim, Naomi makes a mistake.

Then Sean seemingly disappears. She tries contacting him but there is no reply. He appears to have vanished into thin air. Who was he? Is there more to him than meets the eye?

As Naomi tries to settle back into the normality of life, she discovers she is pregnant...at last. And that's when strange things begin to happen.

Things in the house are moved around, items turn up that don't belong to them, noises in the loft, the front door left wide open, Charlie is constantly away and she can't sleep.  Naomi is going out of her mind, becoming tired carrying the baby and feeling as if she can't cope. What is going on?

It appears somebody knows her secret.

And then she meets Charlie's friend Sal. It's him and he is as gorgeous as ever...

A somewhat bizarre book, HAPPY EVER AFTER is complex, confusing and convoluted. What made it even harder was the totally unlikable characters. Naomi always appeared to be griping or moaning about something. She is completely dissatisfied with life and decides she wants more instead of being content with what she had. She is irritating, self obsessed and I couldn't stand her. I didn't much like Charlie either. Added to that a demanding child ("spoon, spoon, spoooooon!!"), and I felt like tearing my own hair out.

HAPPY EVER AFTER is anything but. It is slow moving, despite the short snappy chapters that were all about Naomi and her need for something more. And the writing? Husband with two flat floury baps for an arse"...really? What the hell?

A sadly boring and convoluted story about an unlikable couple and their perfect lives that is just too mundane for some. HAPPY EVER AFTER did nothing for me but long for my next book. I couldn't finish it as it was going nowhere.

Definitely not the addictive thriller it was billed as.

I would like to thank #CCMacDonald, #NetGalley and #RandomHouseUK and #VintagePublishing for an ARC of #HappyEverAfter in exchange for an honest review.

Saturday 28 March 2020

REVIEW: Burning Island by Suzanne Goldring (ARC)


Burning Island by Suzanne Goldring
Genre: Historical fiction, contemporary fiction, women's fiction, Dual timeline
Read: 28th March 2020
Purchase: Amazon
(publication date: 22nd January 2020)

★★★★ 4 stars

I always knew that Suzanne Goldring would have difficulty topping the brilliance of her first book "My Name is Eva" and any others would just be a shadow of that one. BURNING ISLAND is her second and, whilst I did end up enjoying it, the story wasn't nearly as compelling as her previous offering.

1944: Isaac and Perla Nikorkiris, along with their daughter Rebekka, live a quiet life in the Jewish quarter of Corfu Town. However, for the past few years they have kept the existence of their two youngest daughters secret and not registered their births, keeping them hidden in an effort to keep them safe. Now they have a difficult choice to make. The Germans are making noises around town that the Jewish residents will soon be leaving the island and Isaac and Perla have a plan in place for the youngest girls to be taken to a safe place to be be kept hidden. A middle-aged childless couple, Agata and Georgiou, are willing to put themselves in danger to look after the girls and keep them safe until the war is over.

The following morning, five year old Matilde and two year old Anna awake confused with no idea where they are or where their parents and Rebekka are. Agata explains that they have been sent to live with them while their parents and Rebekka go to work for the Germans, and that after the war they will return and be reunited with them. The girls are malnourished and have a sickly pallor from never having been outside for fear of discovery by the Germans. Agata endeavours to fatten them up with good clean air, sunshine and plenty of wholesome food from their land.

The coastal cottage where the girls now live with Agata and Georgiou is far from town and prying eyes. They will not be discovered there...but should any stranger happen by, Agata shows the girls a very special hiding place where no one will ever discover them, making an adventure out of it. But they still miss their parents and Rebekka and sometimes cry at night for them. Agata comforts the girls as she would her own, singing them to sleep or telling them stories. Within days it is clear the girls are happy, playing outside in the fresh air and sunshine and soon begin to look healthier.

While their little haven remains secret Agata knows it is only a matter of time before their little cottage is discovered, as Germans continue to scour the island for Jews who may have slipped through their net. Then when a stranger appears on their beach one having been swimming, the couple are spooked and decide to relocate the girls to an even more remote area...high in the mountains.

2006: Amber and her husband have left their old lives behind in cold and miserable London for the warmer climes of Corfu, filled with hopes and dreams of starting their own business. They stay with friends while searching for the perfect location and meeting some interesting characters along the way who assist in making their dreams a reality. When they come across the perfect mountain hideaway that will be their home, plans are soon put in motion to restore the existing building and extending it into a restaurant and a bed and breakfast.

During the building phase, James spends more time with the two men who have helped make this dream possible - Greg and Dimitri. Without their invaluable knowledge and assistance, Mountain Thyme would never have come to fruition. But James keeps their discussions secret from Amber, without confiding in her the extent of Greg and Dimitri's involvement.

When Amber falls pregnant, James is anything but pleased. This moment that is to be savoured and enjoyed is dampened by his relentless need to build his reputation and put Mountain Thyme on the map as a sought after place. He is furthered bothered by the fact that the baby is due around the beginning of August, at the height of their summer season, which will further inconvenience him. I could have honestly slapped him for his lack of feeling and sensitivity! Of course, Amber's pregnancy made her excessively hot, particularly when summer arrived, prompting him to sleep in one of the spare rooms if there wasn't a guest booked in. Failing that, he then began to spend the nights at Greg's place, leaving Amber alone in their remote mountain view home.

Whilst James explores business opportunities with Greg and Dimitri, Amber befriends two women - Marian and Inge - who run a couple of quaint shops on the island specialising in rustic items from furniture to pottery, with which they intend to furnish their new home and business. During her visits with the women, Amber learns how Inge came to own the shop and the story behind the couple who bequeathed it to her when they passed.

As Amber listened to the stories Inge related to her, she finds herself drawn to the stories of decades ago when the couple helped hide two little girls from the Germans during World War 2, and those of the Jewish people living in Corfu during the war. Inge's passion for the forgotten Jewish people of the island is reflected in her desire to educate tourists about them at the gate of the Old Fort, where the thousands of Corfiot Jews were gathered in the days before they were shipped off the island in barges...in the foolish belief they were going to work for the Germans. Instead their 27 day journey to Auschwitz was long and without food or water bringing death to most and those who did survive were merely destined for the gas chamber.

Told over dual timelines, BURNING ISLAND is a captivating read although the 1944 time period was far more absorbing and I would have liked that story to have featured more prominently. As it was, it was Amber and James' story that was main storyline and in parts was a little too repetitive. I wasn't particularly interested in the life and times of Amber and James as they built their dream only to end up at each other's throats. It wasn't until about halfway through when Amber finally hears the stories of the Corfiot Jews and the of Matilde and Anna, and the threads begin to pull together. The plight of the Jews and the inhumane journey to Auschwitz was both fascinating and heartbreaking that just pulled at your heartstrings. The final chapter for 1944 had me shedding bucket loads. And yet the final chapter of Amber and James' story was somewhat anti-climatic.

I said at the beginning that I didn't find BURNING ISLAND as compelling as "My Name is Eva". This is true. Although both books are completely different, I guess I was expecting something just as breathtaking and as brilliant as the author's previous offering.

I think my biggest issue with this book was that it was promoted as historical fiction about the fate of two little girls in Corfu in 1944 when in actual fact the primary story was that of James and Amber in 2006. I felt kind of ripped off that it wasn't as much a historical read as I had hoped but more of a contemporary one with threads of the historical story woven throughout.

Another issue I had was at the height of the season that James was so bothered with being inconvenienced with the birth of their baby, when it came down to it, there were no guests in their bed and breakfast at that time and Amber was left alone on the burning mountainside about to give birth! Wasn't his gripe being that it was at the height of the tourist season? And yet there were no tourists booked in! It didn't make sense that their bed and breakfast was completely empty at the end of July when it would normally be at its busiest.

Another gripe was the dates were all wrong. The premise had the story taking place in 1943 and 2016. The historical date could be forgiven with being just a year out but the later storyline was nowhere near 2016, but rather 2006 through to 2009. Little things like that make me wonder if those who wrote the premise or even the reviews had actually read the book, as they all pretty much quote those same dates.

But...having said that, BURNING ISLAND is a moving story underneath, which is both poignant and heartbreaking. I just wish Matilde and Anna, and the plight of the Jews had been a more prominent storyline and not a secondary plot. The Historical Note at the end was incredibly emotional and had me shedding even more tears.

Overall, I do love Suzanne Goldring's writing and I look forward to reading more from her in the future.

I would like to thank #SuzanneGoldring, #NetGalley and #Bookouture for an ARC of #BurningIsland in exchange for an honest review.

Thursday 26 March 2020

REVIEW: Her Secret Past by Kerry Watts (ARC)


Her Secret Past (DI Jessie Blake #3) by Kerry Watts
Genre: Crime fiction, police procedural, thriller
Read: 25th March 2020
Purchase: Amazon
(publication date: 22nd January 2020)

★★★ 3 stars

I absolutely loved loved loved Kerry Watts' first two books in the wonderful Jessie Blake series, so of course I needed no persuading to read this one. But unfortunately I don't think it was as up to par as the first two. It was an OK read and upon reading other rave reviews on HER SECRET PAST, I found myself wondering if we'd been reading the same book. It certainly had promise...but this one just wasn't as thrilling as "Heartlands" or "Her Missing Child".

Alice Connor was just 14 years old when she and her 19 year old boyfriend David Law blugeoned her grandparents with hammers in their cottage on Boxing Day 1990. Because they told her that David was too old for her and she couldn't see him anymore. They were the only parents she'd known having brought her up after the death of her own when she was a baby. But  sentiment played no part in the gruesome slaughter as Alice relished in the killings. And then she and David could be together forever.

But a neighbour heard the screams and called the police...who arrived just in time to see Alice covered in her grandparents' blood.

Thirty years later and with a new identity, Rachel is now living in a remote Perthshire town in Scotland. Her husband, wealthy businessman Kenny Ferguson, knows all about her past. Rachel knows all too well the crime she committed and not a day goes by that she doesn't remember and feel remorse. Due to her age at the time, it was alleged she had been groomed by the adult David and after spending six months in a young offenders home, she was given a new name and a foster placement...while David spent 25 years in prison for the murders.

Malcolm and Jean Angus are Rachel's elderly neighbours on a neighbouring farm. Recently there had been words exchanged regarding the use of a paddock Rachel had purchased from the Angus' to train her racehorses and a disagreement over the proposed application the Fergusons had filed with the council. And now, twenty nine years to the day after the Connor murders, someone has shot Malcolm and Jean Angus through the head.

DI Jessie Blake, accompanied by her partner DC Dylan Logan, is called to the brutal murder scene on Boxing Day. They are immediately bemused by the indifferent behaviour of the elderly couple's 21 year old grandson Gordon who is seated beside his dead grandfather enjoying a chicken sandwich seemingly without a care. Gordon's father Tommy, who called it in, is in the sitting room in shock.

After questioning Tommy, Jessie and Dylan learn about the couple's recent dispute with Rachel and Kenny over the land, so they set off for the neighbouring farmhouse to question the couple. But nothing prepared them for the confession Rachel makes...which immediately makes her the prime suspect.

But then money is withdrawn from the dead couple's bank account. So who had access to their money? Rachel surely didn't need the money - her husband is wealthy enough - so who else could it have been? But when evidence at the murder scene is identified as belonging to Rachel, Jessie has no alternative but to arrest her for the murders. Rachel swears her innocence but the evidence is damning.

Not only is the case taking its toll but Jessie's abusive ex-husband Dan is back on the scene, as we have seen in the first two books, but this time he is in plain sight and not hiding in the shadows. Jessie is sure he is up to something but she doesn't know what so she endeavours to keep herself on her toes...and to expect the unexpected. What she didn't expect was for Dan to have a new girlfriend, Hayley, who co-incidentally works with Jessie's boyfriend forensic pathologist Benito Capello in Edinburgh. She has to wonder, is there something in that? And while Hayley means nothing to her Jessie feels she must warn the young woman about Dan...for she feels sure that history is only going to repeat itself. Men like Dan don't change...and it's only a matter of time before Hayley ends up in a hospital room, having "tripped and fallen".

But Dan is not the only person watching Jessie. It seems she has come to the attention of someone with murderous intentions and one night with Ben back in Edinburgh, Jessie answers the door to an unexpected visitor...and finds herself fighting for her life.

Told in dual timelines beginning in 1990 with a series of flashbacks and the present day's investigation, HER SECRET PAST is quite a complex, convoluted tale that carefully weaves the past and the present. And as the secrets begin to unravel, we are left wondering exactly what role everyone had in the bigger picture.

There were twists and reveals that you may or may not see coming. I figured one of them out rather early in the story but was disappointed to see that it didn't play a bigger part. The other twists, though, I never saw coming. And I certainly never guessed till just before it was revealed who the villain actually was.

What I did love in HER SECRET PAST is what I love to see in every book - short snappy chapters! They keep the pace moving quickly and the tension palpable.

I really love Jessie. She is a detective with heart and not your stereotypical copper that grumps and ends every night with a bottle of prosecco. But after three books, I would have thought we would have more insight as to what is going on with her ex-husband Dan. In all three books he has been clearly stalking her, more secretly in the first two though still with some stealth in this one, it doesn't seem to have gone anywhere. He is still just there and we still don't know to what purpose.  I thought by now there should be something more happening there.

I also love Dylan. He has just become a father again and things at home are a little tense as they tend to be with new babies. I would like to see a little more of Dylan and his personal life maybe somehow connected to a future investigation. Something to spice things up while we learn a little more about him in the process. He still seems a bit tight-lipped on his personal life no matter how often Jessie has offered her ear.

Although HER SECRET PAST is the third in the series, it cane be read as a standalone as with the previous two. There is an underlying theme regarding Dan but readers won't miss out on anything as all he seems to be doing is stalking Jessie and keeping track of her in each book. Plus, any backstory information is given to readers to keep them appraised.

While I didn't enjoy HER SECRET PAST as much as the first two books in the series, it is still an OK read. I will still be coming back for more with the next book in the hope it is more on a part with the previous ones. And I would still recommend it to fans of the crime fiction genre.

Bring on book four! I cannot wait!

I would like to thank #KerryWatts, #NetGalley and #Bookouture for an ARC of #HerSecretPast in exchange for an honest review.

Wednesday 25 March 2020

REVIEW: The Daughter of Victory Lights by Kerri Turner (ARC)


The Daughter of Victory Lights by Kerri Turner
Genre: Historical fiction
Read: 23rd March 2020
Purchase: Amazon
(publication date: 20th January 2020)

★★★★★ 4.5 stars rounded up

An historical fiction novel with a difference, THE DAUGHTER OF VICTORY LIGHTS by Australian author Kerri Turner is not at all the kind of story I was expecting. Taking us on a journey through WW2 and the post war era, we are given a completely different perspective of a very different tale that is both shocking and exciting for its time.

Evelyn Bell spends the war years as a trained searchlight operator of an all-female crew for the Auxilliary Territory Service, where they spot enemy bombers for the gunners to shoot down and help keep London safe or guide British planes home. It is dangerous yet thrilling work but Evelyn thrives on it. She is extremely passionate about her job doing her bit for the war effort, despite her uptight sister's disdain, and often finds herself reading up on the different lights and their varying brightness, fascinated about their workings.

But when the war comes to an end, her celebrations on VE Day are shortlived. What is she to do with the rest of her life after the excitement and fulfillment she found in the Auxilliary Territory Service? Her older sister Cynthia wants her to find a husband and raise a family, as all good respectable women do...but for Evelyn that prospect is both daunting and dull. She longs for escape from her already unfulfulling life.

A chance meeting with a somewhat charming man one day leads her to witness a performance so risque it's like nothing she has ever seen before. It is both shocking and exciting and Evelyn finds herself drawn to the mysterious boat, the Victory, where she is invited on board after giving one of the crew a dressing down on their handling of a spotlight. Her outspoken sassiness as well as her knowledge of lights leads her to join the crew as a light operator.

The Victory is a moving stage for risque performances travelling along the rivers and seas, out of reach of the police who may attempt to shut them down...after all, their performances break most of the censorship rules. But despite this, Evelyn (now Evie) is excited at the chance to work with the spotlights she loves whilst doing something fun and exciting. But when she tells her sisters, she is cut off entirely as being immoral and unrespectable. And so the crew of the Victory become her family.

In 1963, we meet 10 year old Lucy who, feeling unwanted and unloved, is uprooted from her unhappy life in London with her aunt and finds a new home with the former members of the Victory on the Isle of Wight. She feels an instant kinship with Bee who takes her under her wing in a motherly fashion, despite not being able to cook very well, and the kindly Mr Walsh. But she was promised that she was coming to live with her father and she had yet to meet him.

In just a few short short weeks, Lucy could feel the love and warmth she had never felt before. Bee and Humphrey told her tales about her mother and showed her photos which she was enamoured with. Aunt Cynthia never allowed Lucy to speak of "that woman" so hearing about her mother now was refreshing. But there was something Bee and Humphrey were keeping from her. Neither would tell her what happened to her mother. She knew this house held many secrets, but no one would tell her anything. Would she ever find out who her parents really were?

Told in two parts, THE DAUGHTER OF VICTORY LIGHTS is an intriguing historical tale that is both heartwarming and heartbreaking. There is tragedy, mystery and complicated relationships aboard the Victory as well as off as we journey with the cast and crew of this fascinating old tramp steamer.

Evie is a complex character and yet she has a simplicity about her. Trying to find her place in the world after the war, she just wants something different. Something useful and yet exciting. She is thoroughly likeable and we find ourselves sympathising with her, both in the face of her sister and the trials that come her way.

Another important character is Flynn. Although the story is primarily Evie's, at first we aren't sure what part American Flynn plays. We are first introduced to him tendering bar in Honolulu in 1941. His life changes in an instant when the Japanese bomb Pearl Harbour and he signs up to the US army. He is drafted to the Graves regiment, where they have the arduous task of cleaning up the bodies in the wake of battle and identifying their bodies. It is a job no one wants but someone has to do it. Unfortunately, it's one that has lasting effects on Flynn and he is never the same again after the war. He meets Alvin in Plymouth and the two become unlikely friends, crossing colour boundaries that was both unheard of and unacceptable at the time. After the war, Alvin takes Flynn under his wing and they join Humphrey and Bee on the Victory.

And then there is Lucy. An illegitimate child, both unwanted and unloved by her mother's family, who finds love and acceptance where she least expects it, highlighting the fact that one doesn't have to be blood to be family. Her story is a sad one but she brings life and hope as her mother's memory lives continues to live on in her daughter.

THE DAUGHTER OF VICTORY LIGHTS is told in two parts - the first by Evie and Flynn with the second by Lucy and Flynn. It is a tragic and heartfelt story that is entrenched in grief, love and loss but also offers a hopeful ending.

An historical tale with a difference, THE DAUGHTER OF VICTORY LIGHTS is more than a wartime story, highlighting post war dramas such as PTSD, unemployment, the rise of feminism and much more. In fact, the war features in just a small part. There are secrets, tragedy and the power of love.

A captivating story from beginning to end, THE DAUGHTER OF VICTORY LIGHTS is unique and original and completely immersive, you won't want it to end.

I would like to thank #KerriTurner, #NetGalley and #HarelquinAustralia for an ARC of #TheDaughterOfVictoryLights in exchange for an honest review.

REVIEW: Deadly Still by Keith Moray (ARC)


Deadly Still (Torquil McKinnon #6) by Keith Moray
Genre: Crime fiction, police procedural, noir
Read: 24th March 2020
Purchase: Amazon
(publication date: 20th January 2020)

★★★★ 4 stars

I have read just one in the Torquil McKinnon series "The Gathering Murders" but I really enjoyed it that I didn't mind so much jumping ahead and reading the latest one. DEADLY STILL is the sixth in the series but honestly, the books can be read as standalones. There is some background story going on in each but the reader is given enough information to be kept up to speed and in any case it isn't the main focus of the books...which is, of course, whatever the current investigation is.

The locale for this series is the Scottish isle of West Uist in the Outer Hebrides. Sergeant Morag Driscoll is out for a morning run when she hears a scream. In the mist, she comes across teenager Catriona McDonald in serious distress by the old WW2 pillbox. Screaming hysterically that she cannot see and reeking of alcohol, Catriona claims that she cannot wake her friend Jamie. What's more...there was a third teenager, Vicky Spiers, who had been with them but is nowhere to be found.

With one teenager dead, another in a critical condition in hospital and a third missing, Morag needs to contact Detective Inspector Torquil McKinnon but her phone is dead. When the local Royal Mail driver is passing and stops to help, Morag borrows his phone to call for assistance. But Torquil, who is down in the caves on his early morning ritual of playing his bagpipes, does not get Morag's frantic messages until he returns to his motorbike. But once help is summoned, Torquil jumps into action immediately attending the scene when he should be meeting the ferry from the mainland with their team's new DC.

And then, another body is found. An adult male also reeking of alcohol. All have been poisoned with homemade "peatreek" whisky laced with methanol. Are the incidents related? And where did they get the deadly "peatreek"? Then the police station is burgled with some of the search evidence disappearing along with some petty cash and PC MacPhee's "murder shoes" he had just received for the traditional hammer throw in which he takes part.

Torquil and his team have their hands full trying to locate the missing girl and tracking down this deadly still. With the help of the community, everyone bands together to find Vicky Spiers, while others have secrets they would prefer to keep hidden.

A solid police procedural without the cockiness or arrogance found in other books, the Torquil McKinnon series is easy to read and thoroughly enjoyable. The picturesque Scottish isles of the Outer Hebrides, along with the mist and the rain, is painted in such a way that it adds a noir-like atmosphere with an air of menace. It is in vast contrast to the cheerful characters which I have come to love.

Known as "Piper" to the locals, due to his finesse on the bagpipes, Torquil McKinnon is a thoroughly likeable character. He is nothing like the arrogant, sexist detectives with a penchant for too much alcohol and a need to bully those below their rank. He is fair, analytical and resourceful and treats all his colleagues as friends. The cast of characters are an enjoyable bunch who all become real in your imagination. Alongside Torquil, there's his uncle "the Padre", Morag Driscoll, Ewan MacPhee, the Drummond twins (Wallace and Douglas), the new DC, Lorna and of course Calum and Cora from the West Uist Chronicle.

As with the the rest of the series, DEADLY STILL is easy to read and thoroughly enjoyable. It doesn't need the complexities of other books as Keith Moray brings the story to life through the atmosphere he's created with the scenery and the weather.

I look forward to more of Torquil McKinnon and his team in this unique and beautiful setting of West Uist.

I would like to thank #KeithMoray, #NetGalley and #SapereBooks for an ARC of #DeadlyStill in exchange for an honest review.

Monday 23 March 2020

REVIEW: The Fortunate Ones by Catherine Hokin (ARC)


The Fortunate Ones by Catherine Hokin
Genre: Historical fiction, WW2
Read: 22nd March 2020
Purchase: Amazon
(publication date: 20th January 2020)

★★★★ 4 stars

I have read many books set during World War 2, both in Britain and in Europe, and it continues to be one of my favourite genres. While there is an element of sameness throughout, each book is very different with a unique story that unfolds through the eyes of some very different people. I love to hear how the war touches each of these characters and the parts they played.

In THE FORTUNATE ONES, the story begins in Berlin during the war years  and continues beyond. It is a very different tale in which we follow two main characters Felix Thalberg, a German of mixed blood with a Jewish father, and Inge Ackermann, a young idealistic German woman married to a a high ranking SS officer who is brute of a man. Two very different people whose paths were destined never to cross...

It's 1941 in Berlin and 18 year old Inge Ackermann's family have arranged her marriage to a much older high ranking SS officer and prominent Nazi doctor, Max Eichel. The union is to combine the fortunes of the two families although Inge never sees a penny of it. One night before she is to be wed, Inge's friend Leisl arranges for them to slip away to a dance hall during a party she is to make an appearance. It is there, Inge meets handsome young Felix Thalberg. Wanting to be someone else somewhere else in that moment, she gives her name as Hannah Huber. And together they dance, lost in the moment, and they kiss. But when the sirens ring out, Inge and Leisl must hurry and return to the hotel's own shelter before their absence is noticed...but not before Felix asks her to meet him again. When she does, she is jumpy and jittery, and seeing shadows where there are none. After just a few short minutes, she leaves again, knowing she will never see Felix again.

Felix Thalberg is an apprentice printer when he meets beautiful young Hannah Huber in the dance hall. Her blonde curls striking against the Prussian blue of her dress. They dance, they kiss, and they fall in love. But all too soon, she is gone again. But Felix never stops hoping that he would find her again. From the outset, Felix has conjured up a story and an image of Hannah, convinced that she must be a Jewish girl from the nearby area. Over the years she becomes a sort of talisman for him that keeps him alive.

Felix is what is known as a "mischling", a person of mixed blood - half German and half Jewish, which in the Nazi's opinion makes him Jewish. His father is turned out of his lecturing position and forced to wear a yellow star to identify him as Jewish. His mother, an aryan, refuses to leave her husband and is therefore shunned by the community. Felix himself is unsure where he fits in Germany's new regime, being neither German or Jewish. But one day, the choice is made for him when he is arrested and sent to the Sachsenhausen concentration camp, with his father on one truck and him on another...and his mother left behind.

Upon arrival at Sachsenhausen, Felix is in the yard when he sees a face at the window watching him. It is Hannah. She is here too! Felix calls to her, feeling sure she is in danger, especially when he sees "the Needle" Dr Max Eichel standing right behind her. He believes that she is a prisoner...and in a way she is...but not in the way he thinks.

Inge has been forced to marry Max Eichel. She is expected to be the "perfect" Nazi wife, an ornament on his arm at functions, never asking questions and to simply obey her husband's every command. Except that she can't. She knows something isn't right and that her husband is up to something. But what? She knows at home he is brutal, callous and abusive...but what she doesn't know is that at the camp he is a monster who performs horrific experiments on prisoners. Oblivious to what he does, but at home his abuse speaks volumes, and Inge sees no way out.

When Inge saw Felix through the window, she knew he was destined for a fate worse than death. She didn't know what really went on at the camp but she was sure it wasn't good, particularly with Max as the camp's doctor. In the lining of her bag she kept a secret, and she used it now to secure a promise of something better for Felix, without Max learning of it or that would surely guarantee Felix's death.

Felix is assigned to a place in the camp where they make counterfeit money, where he is given a slightly better existence than others in the camp. He is fed, he is clothed and his bed is not shared with others. For that he is grateful...but what he doesn't know is that, until Hannah saw him from the window that day, he was destined for a fate worse than death. He is still a prisoner and it's the thought and memory of Hannah that gives him hope and strength to survive.

Max doesn't know what Inge is hiding, but he knows it's something to do with that Jew in the camp's courtyard. He saw the way she looked at him and he her. They knew each other, of that he is sure. So Max vows to do everything he can to find the Jew and take pleasure in punishing Inge for it.

Despite the arrangement of her marriage to Eichel, Inge did enjoy the early days but she soon discovered it turned nasty if she questioned Max or dared to offer an opinion. Soon after seeing Felix and Sachsenhausen, the tides turned and Max became even more abusive as if he were punishing her. He taunted her, ridiculed her, gaslighted her that in the end had her questioning her own sanity. As tensions become rife as the war nears its end, Max plans his escape before the regime falls and they are captured. He was all set to leave Inge behind...until he discovered she was pregnant. She was so close to being free of him at last...and now she knows she can never leave.

Inge always knew Max was monster towards her but when she discovers by chance just how sadistic he really is, she secretly begins to collect evidence, listening to conversations, noting names, and hopes one day she can make him pay for his evil intentions.

The story unfolds through the eyes of both Felix and Inge, in alternating chapters, and their narratives are both heartwarming and heartbreaking. I loved both of them and reading their stories. There was no way either character would come through this unscathed...but can their love sustain them and help them persevere?

Admittedly, I did fine THE FORTUNATE ONES slow to start but that could have been reflected in how tired I was when started it. I did find a lot of description and not a lot of dialogue to begin with, of which I am not a fan, but as the story developed I discovered this style worked as it was primarily reflective. I soon found myself immersed within the lives of both Inge and Felix and hoping they would find each other again.

There was so much to love about THE FORTUNATE ONES, as well as a lot of hate, but it is a beautiful story that is also heartbreaking. The fact that it was from a German perspective in highlighting that not all Germans were Nazis or agreed with the regime is refreshing. So often Germans were all seen as the bad guys when really they were just following orders like everyone else. Not everyone was a Nazi and not everyone agreed with Hilter's regime. And the fact that it wasn't solely about Jews in a concentration camp was also gratifying.

Felix is an especially interesting character. He is mixed blood, Jewish and German, he is talented, he is relentless in his search for justice, he is complex yet relatable and he is flawed. Inge was also interesting in the way she is naive to begin with but quickly learns the harsh realities from which she had always been protected. As a German she is of safe people and yet she still had no way of escape.

From Berlin to Argentina, THE FORTUNATE ONES is a captivating and engaging read from beginning to end set during one of the bleakest times of human history. It is well researched but doesn't feel like a textbook, which is a good thing, and the story unique.

Although it didn't end the way I had hoped in a couple of ways, it was still probably the best outcome... Still I would have liked to see a couple of loose ends tied up but that's just personal preference. It is still a wonderful story that deserves recognition and recommendation.

I am looking forward to Catherine Hokin's next novel and eagerly await it!

I would like to thank #CatherineHokin, #NetGalley and #Bookouture for an ARC of #TheFortunateOnes in exchange for an honest review.

Tuesday 17 March 2020

REVIEW: The Stranger's Wife by Anna-Lou Weatherley (ARC)


The Stranger's Wife (Detective Dan Riley #3) by Anna-Lou Weatherley
Genre: Domestic thriller, psychological thriller, crime fiction
Read: 16th March 2020
Purchase: Amazon
(publication date: 16th January 2020)

★★★★★ 5 stars

When I requested THE STRANGER'S WIFE on Netgalley I didn't realise it was the third book in a series. But that's OK as it reads great as a standalone. I enjoyed it so much that I am looking forward to reading the first two featuring Detective Dan Riley.

As psychological or domestic thrillers go, THE STRANGER'S WIFE is perfect in just about every way. The layers of suspense that builds throughout just pulls you in from the very first page and never lets up till the end. It was so psychological, so twisted but oh so brilliant!

June 2018: Beth Lawler arrives home to discover her four year old daughter Lily is alone in the house, asleep, and her nanny is nowhere to be found. Her car is still on the driveway, handbag draped on the chair, but her mobile phone is missing...as is her passport and some of her clothes. Beth immediately calls Marta's phone but it is switched off. She begins to worry and frantically searches the house again. Then she notices something strange...the back doors to the yard are open and Marta's silk scarf is on the lawn. She calls the police and her husband Evan, but cannot shake the feeling that something untoward has happened. Marta has always been incredibly reliable, she would never leave of her own volition...would she? Or is it something more sinister?

April 2019: Cath Patterson has arrived at A&E covered in bruises with a black eyes, a split lip, three shattered fingers, a cracked rib...and in labour. The beating she had received from her partner Saul Bennett was the worst he had given her and although she claimed her injuries were a result of a car accident, she knew they saw right through it. She arrived broken and smashed clutching her swollen belly with her baby of 38 weeks. She remembered feeling the baby wriggle throughout the beating but afterwards...nothing. She knew then that her little baby was gone. And so through the excruciating pain she delivers her stillborn child into the world, a little boy she named Cody. When the nurses return with him swaddled in blankets, Cath held him and whispered to him "I'm sorry Cody, my beautiful angel. Mummy loves you and I'm sorry."

October 2019: Detective Dan Riley is called to the scene of a particularly gruesome murder in a penthouse apartment. The victim has been shot in the head as he lay half dressed and he has been there for some days. The ID in his wallet lists him as Evan Lawler, owner of a prestigious construction business responsible for designing the very building they now find themselves in. But that's not all...Evan Lawler owns the penthouse apartment himself, despite living in a prestigious area of London in a grand house with his wife and child. So what was he doing here? And where had he heard the name Lawler before? The investigation will lead Dan to question all that he knows and all that he believes with one of the most difficult decisions of his career.

THE STRANGER'S WIFE is a story about two very different women - Beth and Cath. Beth is wealthy and in a loveless marriage but has found love with a man who gives her the kindness and love that her cold detached husband does not. Cath is poor with a violently abusive partner who spends most of their money on drugs. Both are suffering at the hands of their partners. Both are in toxic relationships. And neither can see any way out of their situations. These two women who have completely different lives in two different cities with nothing in common and under ordinary circumstances they might never have met. Until they do. Then one afternoon on the 3.15pm train from London to Bristol, fate intervenes and their lives are changed forever.

From the perspectives of Beth, Cath and Dan, we are given a clear insight into each person's lives and as the story unfolds we see the secrets, the lies, the duplicity, the betrayal woven into a dark and twisted tale of revenge. There are aspects which are brutal as we are given a glimpse into the reality that is domestic abuse and the helplessness of each woman living in their abusive relationship. The psychological, emotional, manipulative and coercive control that is just as damaging as physical abuse is distressing in parts to read but also crucial to the cleverly written plot, which was extremely evocative. You will be enraged as the blood rises from a simmer to boiling point.

THE STRANGER'S WIFE delivers a tale that cautions us that those closest to us may not be all we think they are. It warns us how well do we really know another person. And then it throws us a moral dilemma that leaves us questioning everything we thought we believed to be right.

Although this is the third installment in the series, this is my introduction to DI Dan and I really like him. He is no nonsense but fair, loves his work and takes it seriously without being heavy handed or arrogant. One of the real "good guys" you'd want to have on your side. Like all police protagonists, he has a personal life that is woven into the narrative but doesn't overshadow the main story.

As for Beth and Cath - I liked both of them. Their strengths and their weaknesses were integral to the story and I love how each were manipulated to cross a line that neither of them thought they ever would. It raises questions about the law, justice and morality leaving us wondering what would we do if we ever found ourselves in such a situation? And as the conclusion nears, the reader ponders exactly how it would all end. As much as I wanted Dan to solve the case, I also didn't want him to.

A fast-paced read, THE STRANGER'S WIFE is a fantastic 5-star read that had me swiping the pages on my kindle to discover the fate of the characters I had since grown attached to.

While, yes, the plot reaches a point that we know the direction it is headed, it still gives us a unique twist on an already familiar concept reminiscent of the well-known Hitchcock movie "Strangers on a Train".

I cannot believe I have not come across Anna-Lou Weatherley before. Where has she been hiding, I must ask? I have yet to read the other two in this series and genre, but THE STRANGER'S WIFE (for me) is a compelling and addictive read that had me absorbed from beginning to end...and up till way past my bedtime!

A must read for fans of psychological and domestic thrillers.

I would like to thank #AnnaLouWeatherley, #NetGalley and #Bookouture for an ARC of #TheStrangersWife in exchange for an honest review.

Monday 16 March 2020

REVIEW: Six Wicked Reasons by Jo Spain (ARC)


Six Wicked Reasons by Jo Spain
Genre: Domestic thriller, Crime fiction
Read: 15th March 2020
Purchase: Amazon
(publication date: 16th January 2020)

★ 1 star

Although I had never read Jo Spain before I was looking for to reading SIX WICKED REASONS. The premise sounded interesting with many suspects on offer, however this novel did nothing but grate on my nerves. I have come across plenty of dysfunctional families in books before but this lot just were just so incredibly self-absorbed and whiny that I found them all to be utterly depressing. I had several attempts at giving this book a good go, but at around 35% I just gave up. I could spend another moment in their company.

The story centres around the dysfunctional Lattimer family. In 2008, Adam Lattimer disappeared without a trace, presumed dead. This devastated the family, particularly their mother Kathleen who passed away just a year later. Now it's 2018 and the remaining siblings - Kate, James, Clio and Ryan - are all summoned back to Spanish Cove from all corners of the world. Adam has returned home.

What ensues is a bunch of adult children behaving like spoilt children. They hurl insults at each other, they nitpick, they allude to secrets the others may have...all for what? To one-up the other?

Of the remaining siblings, only Ellen has remained at home at Spanish Cove with their father Frazer. The other four escaped and did whatever they could to remain distanced from their childhood home. Then on the night they all return, Frazer holds a dinner party to commemorate the occasion...secretly summoning the only two married siblings' partners. And watch the fireworks begin! I don't know what Frazer had envisioned would happen but he just seemed totally oblivious to everyone else's feelings. But that wasn't all. It seems the dinner party held one other surprise. Frazer had met someone, a Russian widow a decade his junior, and they were to marry. Of course this threw everything into disarray. The children had no idea what their father was playing at while Ellen was envisioning her inheritance being passed onto the new wife when she has devoted her life to this house!

Frazer requested they all extend their stays as he had organised a celebration aboard a yacht he has rented for Monday evening. There is plenty of grumbling and refusals at first but they all acquiesce in the end. Perhaps Frazer's real reason for summoning them all was to announce his engagement and subtly let his offspring know they are being cut out of their sizable inheritance. Who knows? Frazer is a cold fish, oblivious to anyone else but himself. If he hadn't gone overboard I'm sure I would have topped him myself...had I got that far.

But as it is, on the night of the celebration aboard the rented yacht, family friend Danny notices Frazer is missing and alerts the others. In their search they discover blood on the railings and it isn't long before they find their father's body floating in the sea. What then follows is a thorough police investigation into the death. Was it an accident? Or is it murder?

All six siblings can't help but look at each other wondering - which of them killed their father.

The story is narrated by all six siblings over different time periods from 2008 and 2018 - the latter being divided into before and after. It was a little confusing at first but it didn't take long to pick up. The other voice to the story is that of Detective Downes who delves into the mystery of Frazer's untimely demise to determine what really happened.

I did feel there was a slight nod to the Queen of crime herself, Agatha Christie, with that isolation of everyone gathered together until the murderer is revealed. But that is where any similarity ended because Ms Christie would have created a much tidier version, I'm sure. However, skipping to the final chapters, the conclusion revealing the guilty party was a nice touch.

As much as I wanted to enjoy this book, I couldn't. Every single character grated on my nerves and I wanted to toss the lot of them overboard that yacht. They were so incredibly dysfunctional, which I know was the whole point, but I just couldn't spend another moment with them. As I stopped at 35% and skipped to the end to find out who the guilty party was, I failed to uncover all their secrets as they all had them. And while Jo Spain leads the reader through a wicked reason each sibling had for offing their father, I didn't discover what they were having tossed it in before reaching that point.

I appear to be in the minority with my opinion of this sorry tale, but there it is. Plenty of others have enjoyed it so please, don't take my word for it. I just couldn't bear another moment of the Lattimers.

Despite not enjoying this book, I never write an author off based on one book. While I didn't like this one, I may love the next one. This has proved true on many occasions with other authors. So therefore, I look forward to discovering more from Jo Spain in the future.

I would like to thank #JoSpain, #NetGalley and #Quercus for an ARC of #SixWickedReasons in exchange for an honest review.

Saturday 14 March 2020

REVIEW: One Last Child by Anni Taylor (ARC)


One Last Child (Tallman's Valley #1) by Anni Taylor
Genre: Crime fiction, psychological thriller, noir
Read: 14th March 2020
Purchase: Amazon
(publication date: 15th January 2020)

★★★★★ 4.5 stars rounded up

I was first introduced to Anni Taylor with her debut "The Game You Played" which was scintillatingly brilliant and even more so that it was set around areas I am familiar with in Sydney and have frequented often. But more and more there are some wonderful Australian thriller writers coming out of the woodwork...and Anni Taylor is one of them.

I wasn't sure what to expect with ONE LAST CHILD but I shouldn't have been at all surprised if her debut was anything to go by. And I certainly wasn't disappointed. Despite being twice the length of many other authors in this genre, the pace of the story and the easy writing style had me devouring every last page in just over 24 hours - with a few hours for sleep in between...lol

The premise for this book was an extraordinary concept. Five 3 year old children disappear from a nursery school picnic within a few short seconds on inattention...and all without a trace. It was a day the lives of the parents and family of these children changed forever. Added to that is the fact that the grandmother of one of the missing children, Ivy, is the town's local homicide detective, DS Kate Wakefield.

Kate and her husband Pete have a cottage in the Tallman's Valley, a once-small now growing community situated just a short drive from the main hub of Katoomba in the vastly expanse and dense bushland of the Blue Mountains. Kate had worked homicide in Sydney until the birth of her daughter Abby before moving to Tallman's Valley where she has worked in the local area command for the past 20 years.

Abby was 18 when she returned from an overseas holiday pregnant and then giving birth to Ivy, who was clearly the light of their world. Abby was at a university lecture where she was studying law at the time Ivy went missing and her life took a rapid downward spiral in the wake of her little girl's disappearance. She never forgave herself for not being there for her. Abby and her mother have had a rocky relationship since Abby's teens and the disappearance only served to alienate the two women more. They fell out and Abby escaped to Sydney where they heard nothing more from her until years later she returned with 4 month baby Jasper.

It's now three and a half years later and the Strike-force team original set up to investigate the disappearance of the five children are no closer now than they were when they went missing. Kate is brought in and seconded to the team - something which she wanted from the beginning but was advised against due to her personal interest. She revisited the park from which the children disappeared and set about re-interviewing witnesses to get her own feel for the case. Almost at once, Kate got a sense that something wasn't right. The team leader, however, despite being the same rank as her, refused to entertain Kate's notions and instead focused on the paedophile ring angle...despite there being no evidence alluding to one.

Then within a day or so, the children start returning to their homes one by one...all except Ivy. Why the other children and not Ivy? What did the kidnappers want with her? And then, the team discuss the possibility that Ivy was the target all along in retaliation to someone Kate had put away. Was this true? Was Kate the reason Ivy and the other children were taken? Or was there something more sinister at play here?

Whilst not divided into "parts" as such, the first half of ONE LAST CHILD focuses on the search and investigation into the missing children which then turns into a three and a half year nightmare for their families. Despite this build up, the pace is not at all slow which alludes to the author's expert hand at penning such a compelling read with meticulous attention to detail. Anni Taylor not only tells the story, she draws the reader in and uses the surrounding environment to create an atmosphere of impending doom maintaining the element of suspense throughout. She manipulates the characters with ingenuity keeping readers guessing throughout as we try to figure out who is guilty and who isn't. But what we discover is that just about every character has a secret to hide...and it is up to Kate to sift through the secrets and the lies to uncover the truth.

The second half of ONE LAST CHILD with the return of four of the children and the investigation begins to shift focus. And as it continues, it seems that there are more and more questions than there are answers. New suspects come to light and new avenues pursued. But do any of them lead them to the truth? And more importantly, to Ivy? Even the parents of the children returned begin to question why Ivy didn't return with the others and if it had something to do with Kate. Tempers flare and accusations abound...but Kate is relentless. She will not rest until Ivy is found and those responsible are captured.

Alongside the investigation into the disappearance and return of the children is another case that has plagued Kate for as long as this one. The senseless murder of a young 20 year old woman who was beaten then strangled, the jewellery she was wearing stolen and never seen again. It lead us down an interesting side path when one of the pieces of jewellery turns up...in the house Abby now lives with her boyfriend. This leads Kate to question his involvement in the murder, putting Kate and her daughter at loggerheads once again. The way both cases entwined but separately was a clever addition which made for some compelling reading.

I really liked Kate. Sixty-plus, happily married and in no way at all like the stereotypical detectives of many other crime thrillers that end up grating on my nerves. Sure she has her problems, mainly her relationship with her daughter Abby, but those are things author Anni Taylor uses to create an even more captivating story...to which she has alluded will be included in the second novel in this exciting new series. I can't wait to see where that will be taking us! I love Kate's relationship with her husband which seems to go from strength to strength and is so refreshing to see, rather than the constant broken marriages of detectives drowning their sorrows whenever off duty. Pete is her tower of strength and it is refreshing to see his understanding of how demanding Kate's job is and doesn't at all accuse her of putting him second to it. Instead he supports her and comforts her when she needs his strength. It is so refreshing and I love it. I really look forward to getting to know Kate, Pete and Abby in in the future.

I was a tad disappointed in the ending as it did seem a little random and appeared to be unrelated to the rest of the story. The reasoning behind the abductions was a little obscure as well. I felt it should have had more to do with one or two of the other characters and their pasts (and woven together a little neater), one of which was mentioned and alluded to early on but nothing came of it disappointingly. But the tension and the build up in the climax was both atmospheric and foreboding. I could really see myself alongside Kate on that dark narrow road to Jenolan Caves.

I thoroughly enjoyed ONE LAST CHILD and it kept me guessing all the way through. I didn't foresee the guilty behind it though I do admit to picking up on a clue along the way...a witness to the abduction they couldn't interview but then a picture speaks a thousand words.

Although this is just the second thriller by Anni Taylor I have read, I simply LOVE her style and I eagerly await more from her (OK, so I do have a couple of her other books on my shelf to read yet...lol). She has the ability to create a sense of foreboding with just the environmental setting and her ability to set that tone and build up suspense with tension and trepidation whilst keeping readers guessing throughout is outstanding.

And what makes it even better...is the Blue Mountains setting. It is on my doorstep and I know it well.

Highly recommended to anyone who loves a good mystery thriller.

I would like to thank #AnniTaylor, #NetGalley and #BooksGoSocial for an ARC of #OneLastChild in exchange for an honest review.

Thursday 12 March 2020

REVIEW: The Perfect Mother by Caroline Mitchell (ARC)


The Perfect Mother by Caroline Mitchell
Genre: Psychological thriller
Read: 12th March 2020
Purchase: Amazon
(publication date: 14th January 2020)

★★★ 3 stars

I wasn't sure what to expect from THE PERFECT MOTHER but it wasn't the range of emotions I felt when reading it. I wanted to like the book but all I could feel was a hopelessness and depression for Roz that bordered on extreme discomfort...not to mention the blinding rage for Sheridan. It is the first time I can recall ever wanting to toss the book because of the disturbance I felt reading it. And the fear of entering that claustrophobic setting again. Sheridan made my skin crawl and I just couldn't be in the same room or on the same page as her.

The story begins in Ireland with Roz Foley who is 24, broke and pregnant after a one night stand that should never have happened. Although she confides in her best friend Dympna about her pregnancy, she cannot reveal who the father is as it would surely destroy their friendship, of that she is certain. And yet, she knows that she is in no position to be able to provide for a child either.

Roz wants what's best for her baby and knowing she is unable to provide that, sets about finding the perfect parents for her child. So she opens a profile on an internet adoption site called Miracle Moms and begins her search for an adoptive couple. The website offers discreet and all expenses paid adoptions. I don't know about Roz, but that name alone was just too cheesy for my liking...and really, could anything be so bad that she could see no way than to basically sell her baby (and her soul) online to complete strangers? But...needs must.

Sheridan and Daniel are a celebrity power couple living in New York. Sheridan has grown up in the limelight and on screen since the age of 6 whilst Daniel is a British ex-pat Hollywood heart throb chasing that perfect starring role of his dreams. Sheridan must now live in the shadow of Daniel's success and she doesn't always like it. But one thing she does love is Daniel and she will do anything to keep him. The past few years have not been kind to the couple with inflammatory articles a constant thorn in Sheridan's side and after all the bad press surrounding them, she is determined to increase their popularity again. And what better way than with another child? But this time she wants a girl.....and what Sheridan wants, Sheridan gets.

So she signs them up under a pseudonym on Miracle Moms and finds Roz. As soon as Sheridan sees her, she knows she is perfect!

Roz can't believe a "Diamond Couple" are interested in her baby. This status means they are rich where money is no object, and of course, having come from nothing herself, Roz equates money to being the best for her child. She couldn't be more wrong!

Things progress quickly and Roz is flown first class to New York to meet the couple and not even the fact her ticket was one-way threw up a red flag! But no amount of pleading from Dympna could sway her to reconsider, who was understandably wary and concerned for her friend. Upon arrival in New York, she is delivered to her swanky hotel and hardly has time to get comfortable before she is whisked away to meet the prospective parents. But she will only learn of their real identities once she has signed the non-disclosure agreement swearing her to secrecy. It's all very cloak and dagger but Roz barely bats an eye...and I have to wonder, is it jet lag or is she really that naive?

The moment Roz enters the couple's apartment her fate is sealed and she is more than happy to comply. After all, Sheridan is the epitome of warmth and friendliness - what more could she possibly hope for? And yet still she thinks nothing of the fact that Sheridan has already organised for her belongings to be collected from the hotel and deposited in the basement flat that is to be her home until the baby is born. But what she doesn't expect is that this is where she will remain for the foreseeable future ...alone...with no internet, no mobile phone, no contact with the outside world unless Sheridan says so. She will not share the main house with the couple and her presence is to remain a secret. Because Sheridan is going to pass the baby off as her own...complete with the whole pregnant look of a false "bump" to fool the public.

As soon as Roz learns this, she begins to wonder where she will factor in this once it is all over? Has she just made the worst decision of her life? Are they safe? Or has she just put herself and her baby in danger?

To say I hated Sheridan is an understatement. She made my skin crawl and just spending any time with her left me unsettled. She is heartless, manipulative, calculating and incredibly cold. Her prime concern is for her and Daniel to maintain their status as a celebrity power couple, and she will stop at nothing to see it stays that way. Daniel remained in the background for the most part, taking on the role as the caring kind protector...completely oblivious to his wife's sadistic proclivities. It was hard to resist his charms and his kindness in the wake of one of Sheridan's outbursts. Roz felt sure she could get Daniel onside...and help her escape.

As naive as she is, I feel compassion for Roz. She is a vulnerable young woman in a strange city in a different country under the care of complete strangers...when all she wants to do is to do the right thing for her baby. Locked in a basement with no way out and no way of summoning help, it is easy to feel that same hopelessness that Roz feels. How can she get word to anyone when the only people she has any contact with are Sheridan, Daniel or their staff who either don't speak English or are bound by obligation to their employers that their jobs are not worth risking? If only she had her phone to send that single code word that would alert Dympna that she is in trouble and needs immediate assistance...but George took hers the day she moved in and Sheridan found the secret phone hidden in her luggage. Roz was completely and utterly alone.

The ending was a bit of a surprise. Dympna and her father actively investigated Roz's disappearance in Ireland before chasing their lead to New York and yet they played no part in her discovery. I felt that was a little wasted subplot that could been used better. Still, the revelation as to the father of Roz's baby was a surprise I had guessed very early on. The little clues I picked up along the way made that an easy puzzle to piece together.

A taut and tense psychological thriller, THE PERFECT MOTHER is not an easy read, in my opinion. I found it difficult to get through with the sheer narcissism and psychopathy Sheridan continually displayed. To be in the same room with her, on the same page, was unsettling...and I felt a level of disturbance after being in her presence. I can't really say it was an enjoyable read...because for me, it really wasn't.

An interesting premise, I have read better than THE PERFECT MOTHER with the same or similar concepts (one by Lisa Jewell and another by Alex Lake) but it is still a nail-biting read despite my reservations.

This is my second read by Caroline Mitchell, having enjoyed "The Secret Child" previously. I don't write an author off based on one book as I could love one and not another. So I look forward to discovering more by her in the future.

I would like to thank #CarolineMitchell, #NetGalley and #AmazonPublishingUK for an ARC of #ThePerfectMother in exchange for an honest review.

Wednesday 11 March 2020

REVIEW: A Midwinter Promise by Lulu Taylor (ARC)


A Midwinter Promise by Lulu Taylor
Genre: Historical fiction, General fiction
Read: 10th March 2020
Purchase: Amazon
(publication date: 14th January 2020)

★★★★ 4 stars
I'm not sure what lead me to request A MIDWINTER PROMISE by Lulu Taylor as the premise didn't appear at all exciting but I'm glad I did. It was a surprising read that intrigued me on a journey of secrets and discovery. As an epic contemporary novel, it really draws you in from the start and consumes you as the story unfolds.

The story surrounds the Pengelly family set in one of my favourite locales - Cornwall. It almost has an historical feel of another century with a huge stately home of turrets and gothic architecture that is at the centre of the story. The descriptions of Tawray made me feel as if I was really there, watching everything unfold. It was simply breathtaking.

Alex and Johnnie Pengelly lost their mother Julia tragically when they were just children afterwhich her best friend Sally moved in with such haste that was indecent. Within two years their father David married Sally, wiping any memory of their beloved mother from the house. As their stepmother, Sally removed any trace of Julia and seemingly created a wedge between David and his children, isolating them further and favouring her own horrid son Edmund, known as Mundo.

As Alex and Johnnie grew up, there seemed little reminder of their beautiful mother almost as if she were never really there. They longed for a closeness with their father but Sally was always there to keep them apart. And Mundo was always there to torment them. Of the three children, he was given the best of everything - the best schools, the best university - while all Alex and Johnnie wanted was their father's love and attention. Instead, David faded to somewhere beyond their reach...with Sally always hovering in between. They hadn't only lost their mother, they had lost their father as well.

When Alex wanted to continue her mother's tradition of decorating Tawray with boughs and baubles of dried flowers (gathered in the summer) and opening the house to the public at Christmas, Sally refused. Was there to be nothing of her mother or her legacy left? This was her mother's house - not Sally's. Or did Sally think Tawray belonged to David and that she would become lady of the manor once she married him? Which then begged the question...what part did Sally play in her mother's tragic death? She was supposed to be her best friend...but what if she was only after David and the position he would give her as mistress of Tawray?

As the years go by, the children grew and left the nest. Mundo went to university and became a hotshot lawyer in London, Johnnie also went to London, married Netta and had three boys - Bertie, Nathan and Joe - and Alex...well, Alex remained in Cornwall. She renovated the Old Barn on the edge of the Tawray estate, made it into a home for her and her girls - Scarlett and Jasmine - and created a thriving business of growing flowers and supplying the local village and surrounds. She lived her mother's legacy and continued the tradition of decorating Tawray in the festoons of dried floral arrangements each Christmas and opened the house for the public to enjoy.

But then Tawray is sold - their father cutting out any remaining link with Julia or the past, leaving Alex and Johnnie with only a lingering memory of their mother.

Now, in the present day, their father David has suffered a stroke and Alex and Johnnie have been summoned to his bedside. His prognosis looks grim but Sally remains confident of him making a full recovery by Christmas. For over two decades, David has been the centre of her world and she cannot imagine her life without him. Alex is torn between grief for her father and her irritation that Sally didn't call her as soon as her father had had the stroke...instead of waiting till morning. Like his sister, Johnnie is also torn but his feelings toward his stepmother are of anger at the indifferent way she has treated them - belittling them and allowing her horrid son Mundo to consistently torment them and then siding with him - over the years. And by ostracising them from their father when they needed him most after the death of their mother and keeping them apart in the years thereafter. Johnnie is angry and bitter and has no intention of showing Sally any sympathy or kindness.

Then when Mundo makes his appearance, it seems nothing has changed and he is still the obnoxious overbearing entitled oaf he was when they were growing up. But instead of looking out for his mother, he shifts that responsibility over to Alex to care for Sally in her aging years while h continues to live the high life in London. When all hope of David ever recovering looms, Mundo takes the opportunity to begin planning for the dividing of David's assets between them, languishing in his own sense of entitlement and self-importance that he and Sally will benefit far greater than that of David's own children.

But for Alex and Johnnie, the grief at the impending loss of their father rouses a myriad of other emotions tied up in the skeletons rattling around in Tawray's halls and the secrets it holds. Should their father never wake, the realisation that the truth about their mother's death will die with him fills them with an unimaginable hopelessness.

But then a stranger appears, stirring up the ghosts of the past with news that rocks their world and changes everything they ever knew about their father, their mother and the secrets of Tawray.

However, this is not the only story told here. There is also Julia's, interspersed between the present day and the past. And perhaps the most important story of all.

When we first meet Julia she is a 12 year old living in the sprawling estate that is Tawray and the year is 1975. As an only child, she is incredibly lonely and longs for a "parcel of brothers and sisters" to share her childhood with. She has Lala, of course, her older half-sister from her father's first marriage but Lala lives in France with her mother and she doesn't see her as often as she would like. Then overhearing her aunt Victoria quip to her grandmother one day that Julia was nothing but "a pup from the second litter", left her in a state of confusion. It was no secret that Aunt Victoria found her mother of unsuitable stock for Tawray but why did she dislike Julia as well?

Julia's childhood was a lonely one. She hardly saw her parents - her father always working and her mother taking to her bed whenever she became pregnant which was often but always ending with the same result. No child. Julia grew to hate whatever child her mother was carrying for making her so ill. It wasn't until the last time a few years later that Julia was home alone and she heard the screams from her mother's bathroom that she found a sight that would never leave her for the rest of her days. It sets off a chain of events that was to become like a talisman for Julia as she vowed she would never have children, not wanting to go through what she witnessed her mother endure in her efforts to give her father a son and heir to Tawray. It leads her down a dark path as she becomes more unstable with the years in her attempts to be happy.

When Julia meets David, her life seem to turn a corner. He provides her with a stability and happiness that she has never known before and within months they are married on a midwinter's day. Her distasteful aunt saw it as an omen to marry on such a day which came to play on Julia's mind in the years to come, leaving her to question if her marriage and happiness was doomed from the start. Which only intensifies when Julia discovers she is pregnant. This part of the story was brutal to read. It was raw, it was horrific and it was completely heartwrenching as we watch Julia grow ever more fragile and vulnerable.

David is at her side for the most part when he can get time away from his demanding and somewhat secretive job as an aide to the Prince and Princess of Wales. Alongside Julia's story we see snippets of Charles and Diana's life played out (of which we are all familiar with) despite David remaining tight-lipped about his employer's private lives. As news of the royal couple's separation and divorce becomes public knowledge and the focus moves to the princess and her humanitarian works, the queen of people's hearts' tragic death in Paris ultimately overshadows Julia's own at Tawray.

I think it is Julia's story that fascinated me the most and really drew me in. From being a lonely child and coping with her mother being constantly unwell during her pregnancies to her rather unloving aunt and grandmother. Julia lived for Lala's visits and who became such an important part of her life. From childhood to her chaotic new life in London to her marriage to David to her friendship with Sally to her return to Cornwall, the darkness of the past never entirely leave her. The memories of her mother affected her more than anyone ever truly realised, particularly with her own struggles with pregnancy. The themes of mental health and addiction are woven into the story expertly and with sensitivity that had me completely riveted as I longed for a happy outcome for her.

I have not read Lulu Taylor before but I found A MIDWINTER PROMISE a compulsive book to read that I couldn't put down as I swiftly turned the pages to uncover the secrets that laid buried within the halls of Tawray.

A MIDWINTER PROMISE is one of my favourite types of books - dual timeline narratives filled with history and secrets to uncover and the story unfolds. I love how the past and the present are woven together and how the secrets of the past bind them all. It is most definitely rich in history and I could almost picture that immensely striking portrait mural of Julia's family in all its vivid detail.

Although A MIDWINTER PROMISE is exactly what you would expect with the predictability of a happy ending and a promise of a hopeful future, there are still a good few surprises along the way making the journey a beautiful and heartfelt tale that spans the decades.

A heartwarming story of love, loss, family and motherhood, I particularly found the portrayal of a mental illness somewhat different to those usually depicted to be eye-opening, raw and heartfelt as written from the perspective of the one suffering those demons. I could almost feel that pain. And to transport me to such a dark place was a stroke of genius and just brilliant.

My only niggle with this book was the tidy way in which everything was neatly tied up at the end without a more appropriate reason given behind one particular character's behaviour over the years. The reason outlined seemed a little too convenient and didn't really ring true.

An enjoyable way to lose yourself, A MIDWINTER PROMISE is an addictive read from beginning to end. Recommended particularly if you enjoy historical and dual timelines with plenty of secrets to unpick along the way.

I would like to thank #LuluTaylor#NetGalley and #PanMacmillan for an ARC of #AMidwinterPromise in exchange for an honest review.